haiz haiz haiz....

I lost all motivation to work!! I skipped work today...

Sometimes, i just wish i am rich, so i need not be bothered about work..

arrr... Ppl please help me....


Something really unpleasant happened at work last friday. Although, it seems like i didnt bother.. I just feel that there are too many things going on behind our back.. and i dont like it at all!!

The reason (or so as i see it) that they wanted to push me up to manage the sales ppl... its bcos they wanted me to do sales eventually.. just bcos i managed to bring in some sales over the few mths i am here..

And they wanted to get rid of all the engineers... they say i am lucky cos at least i have a new job allocated to me... i say BULL SHIT!!

They just want to cut cost... and believe naively that singapore can make do without the engineers... meaning they are going to let manila and india site take over all our job roles..

crap... who is going to do the gatekeeping of the work system.. to think that i always put myself into the bad light, cos i always quarrel with the sales manager due to his neglience of the proper work flow.. and i insist things should be done the proper way...

so.. without sg engineer, manila and india team can do it? my ass...

The thing that really drove me mad is that all these was not told to us.. and its the decision of the few managers.. my VP didnt even know... so much of the transparency being boasted about... so much of the respect being talked about...

If you respect ppl, wouldnt you even discuss with us first? how am i going to explain to my order admins if one day they just decided to cut them....

I just feel so siannnn that i really cant find any reason to work..... haiz..... i hate politics... i hate fighting with the management... sucks...


After work was meeting up with cs and nigel at jp.. for dinner.. guess its a long time since we met ba.. cos there are times when there are some silence.. LOL... typical me, i just cannot leave my work in the office.. so, i wasnt really in the mood to talk..

Overall was a nice meet up.. both still the same.. still as ever crappy.. haha..


Friday is just a terrible day over all!! i just couldnt control myself.. i was really very moody when i met up with monster.. tt sweet guy came over to mrt to fetch me and knew instantly that something was bothering me.. I am just in my feisty mood.. so i guess i did pissed him off a little..


I HATE MY JOB...... it doesnt pays well.. it caused stress in my life.. i am always playing mental games there... sucks! totally sucks..

I did a really stupid thing..... -_-

Weeks ago, i started thinking about the perfect gift for monster's birthday. I know i know, i am really very kiasu.. cos his birthday is still more than 2 mths away.

I was planning to take him away for a short trip. And he had the exact same plan to do so on our anniversary which is about 1 mth before his birthday....

So i came up with all sorts of excuses why we shouldnt go.. haha..

Last week i was working from work for almost the whole week.. Haha.. I know.. damn good of my boss!! haha..

So I was planning to bring him to a resort, have a spa, relax by the beach... Because he had been working really very hard, almost all the saturdays he was working.. and he is always complaining about his backache, so i tot of a trip just to relax, get ourselves out from the busy citys.

So i decided on phuket! All expenses proudly sponsered by me.. cost a bomb.. but he deserve a nice trip..

I found a resort that has rooms just next to the pool. The kind that you can jump into the water from your room.. =)

I booked the resort... and i was really excited..

I even tot of how i will surprise him..

Initially, i tot of telling him the night before.. but.. thats a problem as there wont be any time for him to prepare...

so.. Finally, i tot that i will draft out a letter saying that he won a trip to phuket and mail it to his place the week before...


BUT!!

stupid me.. i blurted everything out to him the next day i met him........ -_-""""

Reason being? I am just too excited...


Call me stupid or wat...